2018

Dear diary, how time flies, it's the third quarter of 2018 now. Hmmm, my last post was in January. Time for blogger getting lesser as age getting older. I love to write. Writing allowed me to express myself, helping me to record down those sweet things that I would never want to forget. As you grow older, there are days when you are too weak to speak out your pain or maybe there is just no one willing to hear it, so we start to write. I always believe each word written can ease your pain, heal your wounded heart, drive your anger into peace.  I have started this habit since secondary two, I guess. When I read back to the post I was written 6/7 years back, I see my own progress, how far I've come from. Sometimes, I laughed at the silly things that I did, Sometimes, I feel so sorry that I've been through that much at that young age. It was like reading about my life journey, from a little girl transforms into who I am today, it just feels so amazing. I am so proud that I didn't give up on this habit, trying to make it more often, at least not twice in a year hahaha. I am lazy butt :P





Hey, ya... One important thing to mention I have achieved my diploma this past April, YAY!!! but then I didn't attend the convocation as I thought convocation for bachelor degree is more meaningful and most important is don't want to waste money Hahaha.
Let's back to January, 1st Jan 2018, my beloved Sinlui ROM! No doubts, she is the earliest one gets married among our 8P. We reach her place one day before the actual date. We had a BBQ night with Sinlui family, the atmosphere there was livened up with those kiddos running around. What made the night unforgettable is the new year countdown with my princess. when the bell rang at 12 am, we wish each other Happy New Years, I am so grateful that we are still sticking together after years. I love all of you so much. My beloved Sinlui, I am so touched when watching you made the marriage vow with your husband. Congrats, you have started your next stage of life, may happiness always be with you because you truly deserve it. love you.





February, my favorite festival, Chinese New Years fall on this month. Everyone back to town celebrates the festival. Got to meet all of the relative and friends is my favorite part of CNY. Since reunion dinner night till the 7th day of CNY, I got home at around 3 am every night. What a tiring CNY hahaha, but having a lot of great memories! Oh, yea... I met an old friend in this CNY, my friend's cousin, a tall and good-looking guy, but a bit skinny tho. We know each other 5 years back. As refer to my previous post I first met him on CNY of  2013. I call us 牛郎织女, cause he lives in the city and we only meet once in a year, which is on every year's CNY when he came back to kampung. Hmmm, but actually we lost contact for almost 2 years. Thanks to me, 牛郎织女 finally reunion!!! After all these years, we both change a lot, what remains unchanged is our endless topic. We talk about everything, like literary everything Hahaha. Since the day we get back in touch, we chat every day, we share our day with each other, the interesting one, the funny one and even the sad one.





To me, he is a great listener, a caring friend. Whenever my feelings get so heavy that it weighs me down, he always there to bring me up. Whenever I need some opinions to make a difficult decision, he always gives me great advice. Whenever I got exciting news, he always there to share my happiness. Whenever I need him... he never failed his presence. It was more than I could ever ask for. He is an Optimist person, and I am the opposite. He brings a lot of good thoughts, positive energy into my life. I don’t know if it works, but I do become happier. He gives me a lot of compliments to make me feel more confident. He was like the rainbow after thunderstorms, the stars in the darkness. Things between us start to changes, it is amazing how you can fall in love with someone you didn't even notice the first time you meet them. We had a long distance relationship at first, how irritating when you can only see your loved one through the stupid dump screen. Sometimes, I drown myself in overthinking and he is patient enough to comfort me, pamper me... I know he is giving so much effort to bring us closer, mentally and physically... Thanks for everything that you have done to me. love you to the moon and back.





As I mentioned earlier, I have finished my diploma course in April and my degree course commences in Nov. So yah! My honeymoon begins! Having a few short trips to Genting, KL and Melaka with friends and him. April, I have visited Genting Highland, the last time I been there was 3 years back, Genting has changed a lot, more stylish and classy now. Kind of strange, teenage memories wiped out by the renovation. But then, the new theme park hotel is so lovely, I was like Awwww.. when I first reach the hotel. Sadly, there are many places still under renovation, no much place to go. I truly enjoy the temperature there, will definitely visit again when the theme park start operate. May, a short getaway to Melaka and KL, visited the famous Jonker street, Huskitory in Melaka and also went to Sunway, KLCC, Chinatown in KL. Not much planning for this two trip, it's all about food only Hahaha!!! Fun and relaxing trip with great people.





For now, I am quitting my current job, it's sad to say goodbye, but we need to move on to see a better future. Great things don't come from the comfort zone, so don't be afraid to step out. There are days, I feel lost, but I believe I do the best, God will do the rest. I've attended the swimming class for three months, and now I finally can swim! I once feel like giving up, but the coach told me, you do not run away from your fears, you overcome it and ya...I made it!!! Also, I have moved to stay with my brother for months, it is good to have him by my side, thanks for always protecting and loving me unconditionally, you know what, you are the best brother in the world and I love you. Hmmm... I think that is all for now. Thanks for visiting my blog Haha. Stay tuned for 2018 part 2.

Picture talk now.

Sinlui ROM

Chinese New Year

Friends

 Cousins

牛郎织女

Genting

The lovely theme park hotel

 The snow world

 The only place that still remains old taste of Genting

Melaka

KL

KLCC

USS

阿毛visit SG

Current me

那个时候的爱情

亲爱的部落格你好，上边的标题很明确的表达了今天我想写的部落格。继上一次写关于感情的文章已经是几年前了吧哈哈哈，年少无知的时候写下的文章，现在翻回去看真的觉得这一路走来遍野荆棘。感谢这些经历帮助我成长。我吧，时常会回首缅怀过去的回忆，然后就觉得感慨万千。无论如何，没有这些过去也没有今天的我。好吧文归正传，今天的主角不是我，是我家那2个活宝，外公与外婆。



先说说一些背景吧，我呢从出生到懂事的时候都是外婆一手带大的，期间有好几年跟爸妈在吉隆坡生活过，但是后来还是回到了外婆怀抱。自我懂事以来，我从没看见过外公外婆有什么很激烈的争吵，顶多就是口角呗。应该说他们常常会口角。外婆呢，是个非常典型的贤妻良母，她的整个世界就以孩子和孙子们为主，她就是宁愿自己委屈一点也不想麻烦别人，这点我太心疼她了。而外公呢，是属于比较唠叨的，但是所有唠叨的出发点都是好的。他是想要争取多点和孩子孙子见见的机会。我总觉得他们俩咋好像性格调换了一样，通常是女的比较唠叨吧哈哈哈。我想这大概是他们经常会发生口角的原因之一。
我的生活环境里，看过身边亲人许许多多的婚姻离合，就是连自己至亲的父母也没有战胜所谓的婚姻。我开始质疑，质疑真爱到底存在吗。我无法想象几十年的婚姻怎么说破碎就破碎了。自己也谈过几次所谓的恋爱，也换来了满身伤痕，其实算得上是恋爱吗？我想也只不过是那些年少时的新鲜感。说得难听一点吧，我只是那个傻子，被玩弄在鼓掌还不愿清醒过来的傻子。我特别心疼那时候自己的执迷不悟。辛苦了。我在这个感情中的死角徘徊着，质疑着，迷茫着，走不出来。。。。
直到在外公与外婆的生活上察觉到一些事。以前外公家里热水器坏了，好一段时间家里都没有热水洗澡，每次要是外婆忙到傍晚才洗澡的时候，外公总是对她唠唠叨叨的，然后还是到厨房烧了一大盆热水让外婆洗澡。
外婆是个特别爱小动物的人，那时候家里大概有7个猫咪，2个狗狗。外婆把大部分空闲时间都花在它们身上。而外公给我的感觉是对小动物没有这种闲情，时常会说要把这些猫猫狗狗统统都丢掉。嘴里唠叨着，还是会主动的帮忙喂食物清理排泄物，让外婆去休息。那时候的我突然明白，他只是不想外婆太操劳并不是真的不喜欢小动物。
还记得有一次表妹告诉我，当时候他们在百货公司，外婆好久都没有乘坐过那种扶手电梯了，她害怕得的瑟瑟发抖，外公下意识的牵着她的手上了扶手电梯。我当时候觉得吧，爱大概就是这样，无论多大的年纪在你怕的时候，我就是你的定心丸。
那一个下雨晚上，外婆煮好了饭菜，然后说没什么食欲，不吃晚餐了。我们所有人在吃饭的时候，外公拿了一件外套和雨伞骑着自行车出门了。回来的时候，手上拿着外婆平时吃的清汤面，嘴里也没好气的说，别让面凉了快来吃。外婆说她吃不了这么多，分一点给外公一起吃。那时候我看着他们俩在饭厅的背影，心里想原来爱情可以那么简单。那一个雨夜很暖。
我记得去年吧，外婆暂住在舅舅家照顾表弟妹们，有一次外婆在舅舅在楼下不小心跌倒了，流好多血，脸上封了好多针。我看着心里特别疼。外婆不愿让外公知道，就瞒着外公说只是普通皮外伤。她担心外公会赶着过来看她。毕竟从家乡来到舅舅家要7个小时车程，而外公肾不好，7个小时的车程其他对他来说非常不方便。可是后来外公还是坚持得来看外婆。他来到的时候没有责怪，只是问外婆还痛吗。
外婆总是嫌弃外公的唠唠叨叨，却还是细心的为他打理家里的一切。外公他牙齿掉了不少，吃不了硬的食物，外婆煮饭的时候总是会把菜焖得软一些。有时候看到外公喝汤喝到嘴巴都是油腻，她会哈哈哈嘲笑外公，外公也配合着她抓头一笑。我看着他们摇摇头会心一笑。
还有好多好多温暖，有趣的事情。我可能不可以一一的写下来，但是我希望能籍着这些点滴来记录我眼里他们的爱。我想记住这种细水流长的平淡幸福。从相爱到结婚，生孩子，带孙子。这么多年来，他们携手走过多少个美好年华，走到了现在白发苍苍牙齿都掉光了，抬头依然看见最熟悉的脸孔。我想这应该是这个世界上最感动的爱情吧。



是不是那个年代的爱情都特别真挚。在这个暧昧泛滥的社会里，还能找到那个对的人吗。
我希望在很多年以后，我在看回这篇文章的时候身边坐着一个人，他敲敲我的头说，老头子我不就在这陪了你走过大半辈子了吗。